Shane Rounce: 18 So today would have been my Younger Brother's Birthday. :( It's…

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So today would have been my Younger Brother's Birthday. :(

It's been about a year and a half since we lost him now and, to be quite honest, this was the one day I've been dreading the most. His Birthday last year was bad enough, with awful weather and the Family arguing but this year it just plain hurts, he's not around to see his own 18th, he's not here for me to buy him a Drink and he can't come out at Night with everyone.

I've woken up early (3am) with anxiety setting in and my Chest feeling tight and sharp. I wonder if I'll start to feel any better as the Day progresses.

I think we're starting the Day by going to get him some flowers, to put on the Grave. I never really understood why we did this for him, he never really liked flowers and would have wanted us to save our Money.

After we're done up at the Cemetary we'll go for a Drink somewhere then probably off for food, cause it's what we would have done if he was around.

My phone is cut off but it would be nice if I was to stumble across a few of his friends, hang out with them for a bit.

God, I miss the little Guy.